looking ahead

i am repainting my room! when i find my camera among all my crap, i will take pictures and put them up. but basically it is cream on top, teal on the bottom, and has a purple stripe in the middle. pretty cute, if i do say so myself. i just have to do one more coat of teal and then it will be ready to move back in! it was weird, though, i felt strangely sad covering up my light purple walls. that purple has seen me through a lot since eighth grade, and i was sad to see it go. it saw me through my first boyfriend, staying up late to do homework, sleepovers with my girlfriends, graduation, and everything in between. so while i was getting all nostalgic, my mom came in and said, "you're finally going to have a grown up room!". and that's when i realized that God has so much in store for me and my future, but if i am still looking back and trying to hold on to what i know, i will never be able to have new fun adventures he has planned for me. i don't know how i got all that from just painting my room, but i did. i know that with God, i can be excited about growing up and becoming more independent rather than being scared.

in other news, i saw harry potter 6 and i thought it was the best harry movie yet. if you enjoy it for what it is, and don't expect it to be exctly like the book, it is funny, entertaining, and not exactly like the book, but it stuck to the main ideas. however, i think it could be kind of confusing for people who have not read the books before because it goes kind of fast.

that's all for now, i'm working today at my friend's parents' office, so i am glad to be making a little money, and i am excited for neille to come back from australia on tuesday!!

goals.

i always make goals for the summer and never do them. well, this year will be different, i am determined, and have already gotten off to a pretty good start. my goals for the summer are, in no particular order, as follows:

1. learn to sew.
2. go on bike rides [i have already been on two, both to golden spoon, both eventful. on the first one, ellen almost fainted, and i felt bad, but also good not stop laughing because i always laugh at inappropriate times. on the second one, i fell into a bush, resulting in me feeling both like a loser and a whimp, both of which i most likely am].
3. learn stick shift [my dad has already taken me out once, and by the end of the summer, i want to be able to go somewhere outside the high school parking lot. bonus if i don't stall].
4. spend time with my brothers and amber [amber is my brother's new girlfriend for those who don't know. i have already done a good amount of this, and it's been good].
5. get back on a regular schedule for spending time with God.
6. get a job.
7. go on a boy fast [this involves no flirting, except when unavoidable, which i believe can be the case sometimes, without being rude, or i just don't know how to politely not flirt with a guy when he is flirting with you. anway, it also involves not going out of my way to talk to a guy, which i know should be the case all the time, but who are we kidding? i know no girls who ever succeeded at this all the time, least of all me. i think the girls will all agree this fast is much-needed].
8. get a tan [in progress].
9. make new friends.
10. go to cornerstone.
11. be more outgoing and less self conscious about it.
12. always be reading a book, at least a little bit a day [i have already read two].
13. read the newspaper [i just made this up, but i should really know more about what is going on in the world/ our country. which shouldn't be hard, because at the moment, i know very little about any of this].
14. love everyone [so, so hard].

i'm sure there are many more, but this is all i can think of for the moment, and so far i've gotten a pretty good start to it.

the first days.

so far this summer, i have:

1. gone to a college bible study with people from church. i'm excited to bond with them.

2. cleaned my grandma's house and discovered a picture from when she was young. let me say, my grandma was a fox.

3. jumped off a thirty foot cliff into water (and it only took paul half an hour to coax me off the edge).

4. shown my brothers the beauty that is 10 things i hate about you.

5. applied for like 7 zillion jobs. hopefully one works out.

6. gone to taco bell 3 times.

i'd consider this fairly successful for the first five days. and tonight my brothers and i are going to sleep on the trampoline.

ode to my girls

laughing until we can't breathe
late night snacks
crying
chick flicks
screaming
singing in the car
comforting
watching friends
annoying each other
joking
talking about boys
encouraging
eating
baking
hugging
shopping
loving.

soundtrack.

so, lately i have become obsessed with certain artists and songs. i love new music, and when i hear a song i like, it just makes me happy! so here are a few that i have been obsessing over lately:

1. take care- copeland
2. just a boy- angus and julia stone
3. autobahn- anberlin
4. no one really wins- copeland
5. you belong with me- taylor swift

also, i am trying to think of a new name for my blog, because i don't like it. so any suggestions would be helpful.

heatstroke.

i have not blogged for a while, and don't have anything specific to say, but i feel like i should say something. so here's a list:

1. it was 100 degrees today! i love heat, but not quite this much. no idea where this came from, it was freezing last week! but at least i can wear the new tank tops i got for my birthday...

2. i feel like i have so much to do! not in a school way, but just things with my summer plans and whatnot.

3. speaking of summer... i wasn't that excited about it because i won't really see any of my friends from school, but i've started getting excited for golden spoon, the beach, my prospective summer job, bonding with my brothers, and seeing my friends from home. and if that's where God wants me, then it's gonna be awesome no matter what.

4. i want to go to the beach! i need to tan.

5. i went to the pat little band concert on sunday night, and it was amazing! i was on such a high after that.

6. i have really been struck again by the significance of Christ's sacrifice for us, and it never ceases to amaze me. i never did anything close to be deserving of the love and grace he continually gives me, and i am just being struck again by how amazing God is. it's a good thing to remember.

7. the picture was taken at montana de oro a few weeks ago, and has nothing to do with this entry, i just liked it.

spring break

here are some pictures from my spring break. i mostly just hung out with my family and friends, and worked a little. it was very relaxing and low key, which is exactly what i needed! i am already one week into the spring quarter, and the weather is fabulous! it's so warm and sunny, i love that i can finally break out my shorts and flip flops. so far, it has been good and not too stressful, hopefully it will stay that way!