Thursday, March 18, 2010


this topic has been on my mind a lot lately. i have a necklace that says "grace" on it, but i didn't even really take time to think about how prevalent this grace is in my life, and how i should be so much more liberal in my use of grace with the people around me. here is an honest snippet of what i wrote in my journal the other day:

the other day it hit me that i have been wearing a necklace that says "grace" on it, and i hadn't even really taken time to think about its meaning. i have always known i am called to extend grace to others, but when when i had the opportunity to extend grace to someone, i didn't take it. i just wanted to pout instead.

another aspect of this is the grace that God extends to us humans, to me. I am the farthest person from deserving the grace He has given me. i procrastinate, waste time, gossip, lie, envy, lust, don't put my full trust in God, and i am selfish. yet somehow God sees something in me that He loves, that He wants with Him for eternity! i will never be able to even begin to comprehend that.

God's love for me is irrational. ration would tell anyone to give up on me, i'm not worth it. but He tells me that i am worth it. i am worth dying for. i am worth spending eternity with Christ because He makes me worth it!!

ahh God is so good! that was just something i have been reflecting on lately. i still have a long way to go on the grace thing, but it is so comforting to know that God's grace is enough for all the times i fail.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

it's not pretty.

finals week is coming. and it's evident in the state of my desk, my floor, and my hair (ponytails all the way, baby).

this is where it gets ugly. but God sees it all. and the truth is, he wants it all. He wants everything about me. my messy room, my procrastination, my doubts. all of it.

so i'll let Him have it all. He can handle it.